[Insomnia]

Hey guys!

I have done something that feels awesome. This is the first kiss with the girl I have done some posts about before. We were laying in my bed, watching a movie, really cozy under a blanket. I told her to close her eyes. She did. I reached over and kissed her.

This wasn't the way I planned it, in my head it would have gone something like this:

Ins: Close you eyes, you will have a surprise.
G: (closes her eyes) or why?
Ins: just do it.
G: (closes her eyes)
Ins: (kiss her)
G: … (anything)
Ins: So how was this surprise from a scale from 1 to 10?
G: 8
Ins: Well … Let's make it a twelve.

We'll I guess I chickened quiet a bit, I didn't even say ”you will have a surprise”. She just closed her eyes, and then I kissed her. We continued to watch the movie, just laying really close together. She didn't seem annoyed/angry at all over this. She seemed happy, and actually moved closer to me afterward.

Got a sweet text-message from her later.

Take Care!
/Ins.

Ps. Do any of you feel to use this kiss routine, feel free!

[2s]

Good stuff dude

[Insomnia]

Thanks 2s!

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This blog I got, just to write things, almost anything.
I had a blog at a site that was a pure pick-up forum. I hadn't made a post there since may last year. I don't know why I stopped posting things there. Maybe it was because of the summer, you stay away from computers and not as much online as usually.
Anyway, now I just don't feel of hanging around at a place were it is purely pick-up relative. I now I write about pick-up things here as well, it might seem odd. I often get the feeling that it is lots of ego at that specific forum.

So I decided to just write an good bye post, now over a year later. And I realized, not much have changed. There were new blog's of AFC who was going to be a PUA.

And it feels good that I have made an goodbye post, my time there is officially over. I'm not sure what I want to say with this post. But I'm doing different things now, that I didn't do when I started that blog in 2008.

2008 sure feels like an forever ago.

(And now I got a English dictionary installed in firefox, so you'll less miss spelling!)

[Insomnia]

About habits.

I usually don't eat candy except four times/month (or once a week). That's my standard mode. Sometimes I eat less, maybe twice/month. And when I eat, I eat with no bad conscience. But now it is vacation, and I have eaten candy and junk food almost everyday. And now I remember why I started to eat candy/junk food only once/week. Because I almost feel sick right now, my stomach feels weird, like noxious, and I feel lazy. More lazy than usually.

The days I don't eat candy, I don't eat any of it, and I'm very strict with it. If somebody want to buy/give something I don't eat, I just say no. Some friends have said, "How can you do that?". Well it is simple, I've just decided not to eat any of it.

 I started doing this to loose weight, and I did. But I continued with this "diet" because it made me feel so much better. I remember when I started this, over a year ago now, I started to sleep better, got more energy, less of colds.

Tomorrow I go back to my normal mode of eating. And it sure feels good!

/Ins.

[Insomnia]

Guess what?!

I got my driving license now!
It feels awesome, really good! It have been a long fight with the car theory studies, about tires, eco driving, signs etc.
I made it. It's awesome.

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Now to something completely different. I meet up with a friend yesterday, and he told me that the girl he was interested in, and they had have contact - watching movies and texting. He told me that he discovered that she just got a boyfriend.

It seems to me that the girls that is the most attractive are the girls that are single a very short period. And I feel sorry for my friend, I guess she was his one it. (I'm not sure of what a one it really is, but I think I got a good picture of it in my head). Anyway he started to get more and more into this girl, and what I've heard she seemed to be interesting in him as well. But I guess he didn't act quick enough.

Sometimes you need to take action fast to have a chance, some girls have guys all over them every day, AFC and guys in general.

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Tomorrow I got the house alone, so I hope the girl I have written about before (see G) can come over. I really like her, she got a good view of life and is fun to be around. We will see were we take it. None of us want to rush into things. Which I think is a good thing.

Take care!
Ins.

[Insomnia]

Some update, I applied for a university course, and it will start the 1 September. It was really hard to get in, you needed pretty great grades to get in.
I actually got in, and I thought it seems like a really good education, but I just can't find a place to live. The cheap rooms are all ready booked. And what's left is some apartments that goes for 1000$/month. It's to expensive.
So instead of starting my education, I probably will stay home and work. Or trying to get a job. We'll see how it goes. Anyway, I got accepted at this school, and it just brought opportunity.

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I think I will start learning spanish again. I already speak a little, so much I can have a conversation in a short way.

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One thing that I believe is crucial in meeting girls is Courage. Or balls. Take your pick. To get out of your comfort zone, and do things that feels weird for you.

I will update this blog more often, I've been travelling some, and worked. So this post pretty much summoned up things I've done.

Take Care!
//Ins.

 

[Insomnia]

Why I don't like being on vacation ...

I graduated this spring semester. During the first period of the summer I worked with the drivers license, I took it, started to work at a nursing home for a period of three weeks. Then I travelled to another city, and just chilled (there I realised, I like to travell, more on that in another post.).

All that is just fine, got something to do and everything. But when I got home I was 100% on vacation. And I start eating bad, sleeping late, doing like nothing. I like to rest and sleep after working and when you're tired. But not when I have rested enough. I believe this is kind of normal behaviour when you are about 20. I actually got a friend who gets out of bed 18.00 in the evenings. He told me he didn't like it. Thou that is a pretty extreme example of doing nothing. He got so weird sleeping periods that he mixes days. He thought it was thursday, when he got up friday evening! 

I like to have things to do, so I started to search for jobs, and got a new guitar teacher. Feels good.

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The girl I have been talking about earlier, we are practically in a relationship now (called G in some posts). She is good looking. And she have been in a lot of festivals this summer, and are at one just in this moment.
 And you guys know what happen to beautiful girls in festivals (and of course in general as well). Yes, guys hit on her. And it doesn't bother me at all. To realise that there's nothing to do about it is just life, I believe she should want to be with me so much that she doesn't sleeps/kisses/whatever with other guys.

Now I'm not at all worried that she will.

Take care!
//Insomnia





 

[Insomnia]

Haha, just discovered how ugly that last post did look like. Sorry for that. That was just really ugly combination of big letters! 

Well, now I'm in a relationship! With the girl I've been talking about. It feels good!

And when I think about it, I have walked a long road since I first heard about pickup. That's actually how I ended up here, by hearing about pick-up. It was over 3 years from now,  3 and a half maybe.

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And the difference between now and then is pretty big. And now I will tell you the story of what have happened since then. (Or at least start with it.)

Now I can't remember how I got in contact with 'The Game', but that is how it all started. I read The Game, and thought it was awesome. Really awesome. I loved the thought of living in another way than I were living at the time, that I actually could have contact with girls that were more than friend based.

Let's rewind the tape about 4 years ago, to when I had no contact with The Game what so ever.
I was in a new class. With mostly girls. Awesome I thought. There I might find a girl that I will be interested in, and she'll hopefully be interested in my as well. And I found a girl, in my class, really eccentric, and fun to be around. It's odd and funny, now when I look back at it.
Yes, we were in the same class. A good start. But my thought were something like "You should be nice to girls, or you won't get any". And that is how I treated her when we met at school. Because we didn't talk very much in school. She had a boyfriend, and I wouldn't have a chance as long she had a boyfriend. But, if I were nice to her, I could "get" her when they sometime broke up.

Now it might sound as we talked a lot in school, and used to hang with each other. That wasn't the case. Our contact were mostly thorough texting and instant message. I would barely talk to her at school.
Anyway, her and the boyfriend did after maybe one month brake up. Did it do me no good? Sadly, no. She didn't notice me at all. Or not more than usually. Did I chance my 'method' at all? Nope. Eventually she got a new boyfriend.

It made me sad. We hadn't she noticed me? What did I do wrong?
Difficult questions. Well I didn't talk to her, or did anything interesting, and stayed around her as much as I possibly could, without people noticing.

Now, 4 years later. With the goal I had, to be in a relationship with her. I wonder what I did right.

To be continued.
Hope you do awesome!
//Ins.

[Insomnia]

The story continues ...

I thought back then that I was a really cool guy. I wasn't. Well I couldn't get the girl when they broke up. Because she had a new boyfriend. That's sad.

But... It isn't sure they will last very long, this new couple. And when they broke up, I would have my chance again!
So I waited. It wasn't a good idea. And they didn't broke up. A year had gone by, and I chanced school again.
 
Now when I think back on it, this girl must have made quiet an impression on me.  Because I still had the thought in my mind, that when she would go back to being single, I would be there, and she would become my girlfriend.

Anyway, a new school and new people. Sounds good. Here I might find a girlfriend. But I still had no clue how.

To be continued...
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This is actually really fun, to think back at how things used to be. And how I used to be and do in certain situations. I have actually met the girl with the boyfriend some time ago. And she wasn't that special. Now I realise how insanely stupid it was to think the way I did back then. And now I can laugh at it. It's really funny, I thought that would work! I actually thought that plan would work! 

Take care guys!
//Ins

 

[Insomnia]

Well, I were in a new school. A lot of new people. I was kinda nervous.
After a couple of weeks, when I had found a lot of girls that were beautiful/interesting, I started to realise that I didn't know how to talk to girls. Yes I knew how to talk to them, just casually, as friends. But not with my intention. My plan was something like: Make her see how good guy you are by being nice!

It wasn't  just over one night I realised I didn't knew how to interact with girls. I realised it slowly. When I was in juniorhigh (I think that is what you would call it in Us. Or high school). We were a gang with guys, and one of us said the words: "I could get a girlfriend if I wanted to. I want someone special, any girl won't do." And then we were three guys just agreeing. "That's how it is for me too". The funny part was, no one of us knew how to get a girl. And certainly not a good looking girl.
And these words lived on in me. I thought I knew how to get a girl, when I didn't have a clue.

So one evening, some months into the new school, I started to search for "how to get a girl" on internet. I found some articles on a page called wiki-how. An article called "how to sweep a girl of her feet". I found this really interesting, how you should act around women! Awesome! But this article were probably made by some women. Because a lot of things just wouldn't get you noticed by a women, and defenatly not make them attracted to you. It was tip like, "hold the door open for her. If she touches her hair while with you, she is interested". As I said I found this really interesting, but it wasn't what I were looking for. Because I weren't noticed by any girls, at all.

To be continued.

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I have started working out again, it feels good. Get a lot of back pain, while I am sitting down, so it's a good thing.

I'll be posting relative soon again, but til then,

Take care!
//Ins. 

[Insomnia]

Well, I did those things. And I didn't get more attention from any girls. I went on the internet again. Same page. And there was a new article about the importance of good hygiene to meet women. So I cleaned myself very carefully and still did the things from "how to sweep a girl of her feet". I still didn't get more attention.

I don't really remember how I came to search for "seduction" but one day I did. And this was what I were looking for. I did found a lot of information about David DeAngelo and "The Game" by Neil Strauss. And a Swedish forum for seduction. So I started reading. I read all the things I could get, articles, books, guides, watching clinics etc. I tried to have it all at the same time. I would spend my Friday evenings and nights, just reading these guides of how to get girls. It thought it was awesome. Just dreaming away, entering another world were I were King. I read all these things, and thought of it as my secret weapon to success.
I didn't have the courage to go out and actually do something about it. I were home and reading for a couple of months. I hoped that no one else would find this, so the competitors wouldn't be as many guys. But still I didn't change my life in any particular way.  Did I become more attractive? No.

What got me started then?
Well it was one of the moderators of the Swedish forum I had found. He told me some words I needed to hear, that I have to take my life in my own hands and do something about it, if I want it to change.

So I got out there and approached people, in clubs, at the streets. And starting becoming more out of the box things.

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My next post will sum it up a bit, what I believe made an difference. The difference between now and then. Let's call it an conclusion.

Take Care guys!
//Ins.

[Insomnia]

Well, I remember that I would post this like somedays after my last post. Now I think, why didn't I post that when I had it in my head. 

Anyway, here it is. And it is a thanks.

Thank you Tynan for writing "Make her chase you", it is a great book. It made me realise things about myself, and made me more attractive, not as a player, but in a way as person. I haven't made a journey like many men dream about, to become extremely good with women. I am not. But I am pretty decent, and I'm happy about it right now. I still read Make her chase you from time to time, it contains much things I still can learn and ideas that is really great.

The one thing I have had the most use for is that I have become so much more confident. To understand how to be confident and not to be ashamed of myself. Some of your examples are exactly how I used to be.

I am not the same person as I was a couple of years back, and I am happy about that.

Take Care!

//Ins.